THE DELUSION OF PERFECTION

I’ve spent a lot of my life feeling not good enough, but perhaps not as much as I have in the last almost-13 years. That’s when I took the biggest leap of faith in packing up everything I knew, leaving all my family and friends behind, and moving to the other side of the world. Growing up in a small town in West Texas, Australia might as well have been UTOPIA because it just felt like some distant, make-believe place.

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My current struggle is not feeling good enough..

But today, God you spoke to me through the music in my car: No Other Name (HW), Be The One (DL), Gravity (Bethel), Brother (P&S), Atlas Down (GOY)…

that you made me perfectly as I am.

That i was purposed to be creative & bring out my creativity.

That i am chosen, that I am good enough for what you’ve called me to.

That i need to stop comparing.

That you value the small, the hidden.

Sometimes when the same people keep getting chosen to do the same thing that you wish you’d just get chosen once for, you start feeling like GOd’s the same way. And that you’er not good enough for him either. But God, you dispelled that lie for me today. and you spoke to me.

I just need to do what you’ve asked me to do. What you’ve called me to do.

I need to muster the personal grit to overcome my own things in order to step into the grace of who you’ve called me to be. The grit to become what you’ve already graced me for.